Lost

There's this empty void in my life that I cant really figure out how to fill. I really dont know what to fil it with. So I sat down and thought about all the things I feel Im missing in my life. I came up with a significant other, money in the savings acct, I dont know what I wanna do with my life, and Im not in school. Not knowing what to with my life is a big issue. Im damn near 21 now! I miss being in school soooo much but I have no idea what to go to school for because I dont know what to do with my life. When I was in school I has all for Fashion Merchandising. That field is super cut throat! I'd love t be a shoe buyer but the retail fashion business just isnt for me. Thats what kept me in retail for so long. I was trying to force myself into a field I dont have the patience or really the drive for. On the other hand I love music. As poetic as it may sound its really the air that I breathe. Working in Santa Monica I meet a lot of cool people. My bank is right by the MTV studios and I believe Sony and Epic so I see these people all day rolling around in their Audi's,BMW's, Mercedes's, and Bentley's. I see it. I want it. I crave it. Sitting here depositing and withdrawing money for them aint gonna cut it much longer. I gotta get my stuff together. Its past about time!