12:34am

Its more than just a time. More like a memory that can never go away. Good, bad .... happy, sad. Bet he doesn't even have a clue what it means to me. Sometimes when I feel as if I miss him I look for it to be 12:34am hoping I'll have some sort of contact from him. Silly but true. No matter how long we go without speaking, no matter how much I claim to despise this guy .... it seems as if he will always be around. History is bound to repeat its self but if I re-write the present maybe I'll see a different outcome. Friendship is all I really want. Nothing more nothing less. But friendship is what I seem to not be able to get. Too bad fairy tale endings don't exist in real life. Funny how I'm writing this and "Simple Kind of Life" comes on. LOL dammit Gwen didn't need to hear that right now but hey time will tell where I end up i n this situation .....