Im really starting to wonder why it feels like I can take a step forward with such ease but I get knocked back as if I dont deserve to be where Im trying to go. Life has been a struggle for as long as I can remember. I just want a sense of security. I wanna know that when I wake up in the morning my day wont be so bad that I go to sleep crying at night.

Ive never been the type to want the fancy cars or wear all the designer labels, but at the rate Im going it feels like if I decided to change my mind and want all the riches I deserve I wouldnt be able to get it. Im not complaining Im just venting as I sit back and keep waiting for better days . . .