"I wish I could rip out a page of my memory
Cause I put too much energy in him and me
Cant wait till I get thru this phase
Cause its killin me
Too bad we can re write our own history . . . "
- Keri Hilson "Energy"

I wish I could re write my history. If I could I know I would open up this so called book of my life, go back to 11th grade and i would change only one thing. I would look at the guy with the braids on the 212 bus and look away cause I would know he would cause nothin but pain in my life. Too much energy was put into something that ended up hurting me terribly in the end. As for gettin over this phase . . . its been a year and Im still in the same spot. Sometimes going back and forth with the idea of going back to him cause he's all I knw. Letting myself feel sorry for him. Its all bad but its all so hard . . . one day at a time