The Sweetest Thing I've Known

Every night I go to sleep wit a feeling I lost for a while that I really want back. Not only the feeling... that's not special enough. I need that feeling to be back from a special person. Its been back for 2 weeks now and I can't say I want to give back to him to go back to nothing. But then I think back and read back on how things were and how I was left and I get confused. When things were good it was great but when it was bad? Man it got ugly But time heals all wounds and as much as I try to stay mad I can't. This could most definitely be something that stays around forever, a feeling so strong that's always around I just wish I had a crystal ball to tell me the future on this one. Its honestly the sweetest thing I've ever known. No one has come close and to be honest I think I purposely make it that way. That way he keeps that special place in my heart

This is when I say fuck feelings cause I just want to turn off my slow love songs, turn over, close my eyes, and just go to sleep. I can't. There's something about this guy. Something about the love we had. Something that even though its over I can look at him and feel the same butterflies I felt 5yrs ago when I decided he'd be mine. Love or infatuation? Infatuation or obsessed? Obsessed or just the real deal? Maybe I should ask I've been in the dark far too long.