Slow Down

"What if we happen to kiss, then we touch
Put a rush on it, get it over with
What if I just know what you like
And it feels right, then it's over with
What if I don't call you back, prove you right
All this lasts is just one night
Baby we should slow it down"

Drake - "Slow Down"

Too many what ifs if u ask me. I love this song and I wish a lot of guys would see it this way too. There's absolutely nothing wrong with taking your time and getting to know eachother on a different level before taking it to THAT level. It clears ur mind and makes sure you're not building anything on lust ... Preach Drizzy!!!

The Two L's

Labels and love ... most of us want it, few of us have it. A lot of people have a knock off. Looks like the real thing, may even feel like the real thing. But at the end of the day an essential piece is missing to make it what it really should be.

I just finished watching Sex and the City if you cant tell by now lol. I love this movie but I try not to watch it because it really gets my mind working. For one I crave labels! I want the good life. Now dont get me wrong, I dont need it. I would just like to be able to get what I want when I want it with out putting something else to the side for it. As for the other L ... we all want it. Whether from friends or family, a girl, a guy. We need it in our lives. Some love is easier to find than others. One thing abt love is for sure. It can come in many forms from different kinds of people but it will NEVER hurt. And its not difficult. Some struggle may be present because nothing worth anything in life is easy but heartache and pain isnt apart of love. Learned that the hard way ...

I Wish You Were Here

"But sometimes I wonder why
Why cant u still be here wit me?
Wish God would've waited a couple more years for u to see
I'm tryna stay strong
Barely holdin on
I kno I'll see u again,
But for right now, rest in peace
And when I get to heaven
First thing they'll say to me
Tell me have u seen Estelle Marie Talley
Find out where u are,
Run into your arms
Wrap yo wings around me
And whisper in my ear, well done"
"Wish You Were Here" - Jamie Foxx




Thats the face of an angel . . . my Great Grandmother Bessie Mae Clayton . . . better known to the family as Sister. Friday would be her 103rd bday. I work Friday so I wont be able to pay a visit to the cemetery to see her so Im goin today since Im off. Now I knw I dnt need to go to the cemetery and all cause her body is no longer there but for some reason I feel so close to her when Im there. Even though I live in her old house. Her room is now mine, her bed is even mine. But whenever Im at the cemetery it feels as if she's right there with me comforting me as I speak to her and let her know what Im goin through and how much I miss her. This yr seems to be one of the hardest for me. I know I was her heart. After all I am her Great Grandchild and I was with her almost everyday of my life up until her passing. It hurts to know that Im not living my life the way I should and I know she disappointed. I dont care to much about what people think of me but to know im hurting her hurts more than anything in the world. Bessie Mae Clayton, you are my heart! I love you and I promise Im gonna get it right so I can see you again one day!