I Wish You Were Here

"But sometimes I wonder why
Why cant u still be here wit me?
Wish God would've waited a couple more years for u to see
I'm tryna stay strong
Barely holdin on
I kno I'll see u again,
But for right now, rest in peace
And when I get to heaven
First thing they'll say to me
Tell me have u seen Estelle Marie Talley
Find out where u are,
Run into your arms
Wrap yo wings around me
And whisper in my ear, well done"
"Wish You Were Here" - Jamie Foxx




Thats the face of an angel . . . my Great Grandmother Bessie Mae Clayton . . . better known to the family as Sister. Friday would be her 103rd bday. I work Friday so I wont be able to pay a visit to the cemetery to see her so Im goin today since Im off. Now I knw I dnt need to go to the cemetery and all cause her body is no longer there but for some reason I feel so close to her when Im there. Even though I live in her old house. Her room is now mine, her bed is even mine. But whenever Im at the cemetery it feels as if she's right there with me comforting me as I speak to her and let her know what Im goin through and how much I miss her. This yr seems to be one of the hardest for me. I know I was her heart. After all I am her Great Grandchild and I was with her almost everyday of my life up until her passing. It hurts to know that Im not living my life the way I should and I know she disappointed. I dont care to much about what people think of me but to know im hurting her hurts more than anything in the world. Bessie Mae Clayton, you are my heart! I love you and I promise Im gonna get it right so I can see you again one day!