Back in the swing of things from my week long vacation. Man is it hard to get back on track! I woke up this morning like whats work? Lol I had a lovely time for my b day though. Got my ATL on at Skate Depot introduced my mom to our party place lol. It was all laughs and giggles now Im back to my reality. Back to the same raggedy agenda. Saw some shit that really got me fucked up in the head last nite. Didnt even have to do with me directly but I swear you cross someone close to me and its like a cut to my heart. It got me thinking about some of the choices Im making that can put me in the same hurtful position. It really kills me that I know Im smarter than a lot of the choices I decide to make. Looking back I can see how my tolerance of destructive behavior caused a lot of pain felt not only by me.
So now I lay in bed listening to some music trying to clear my mind, its the only thing working for me right about now. Where the hell did these tears come from? Man I gotta make a move and make it quick. Im hurting myself. I think all I want is my respect. I need to get into some deep prayer and get this together cause this here really aint it. Until its together Im M.I.A. I definitely need some me time and not the kind that would grant me temporary happiness. Here I go .. .. ..
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