Who is Saemone La'Quece???

Impatient, hard loving, kind hearted, temperamental, sweet, controlling, trustworthy, optimistic, intellectual, talented, realist, spiritual, loner, self centered, shy, caring, over bearing, beautiful, selfish, care free, hard working, likeable, fun loving, party animal, complex, fighter, passionate, considerate, naive ....

....as contradicting as some of those descriptions may be, its me. I learn something new abt my self almost everyday. The "me" search is a work in progress

Spoiled Lil Mone

Growing up I always got what I wanted. Especially since I am an only child lol. I had the biggest barbie house, the best barbie car, a puppy, if my friend got something I wanted first my mama did what she had to just so no one else beat me to the punch .... not only does that spoil you as a child but it carries on into adulthood. Man! Im starting to see how much of a brat I am! If something doesn't go the way I say it should go Im in the most terrible mood. I dnt wanna be talked to, looked at ..... nothing till I get my way.

Right now my issue is with guys. I knw exactly what I want in a guy, knw exactly what I want him to do, knw exactly how I want him to act but with matters of the heart {even when its just like} its a give or take situation, not a gotta have it my way or the highway kinda thing. If only I weren't made so damn complex! Its gonna take one hell of a guy to handle me lol

Long Beach, CA

Passin by the cherry exit on the 91 always sends some sort of shock thru my mind. Off that exit the other half of me resides. Long Beach isn't far at all from where I live or where I kick it at but for some reason Im scared to travel there. Today as we were passing cherry I got the urge, Saemone just go!! But I couldn't do it. Too much goes along with that trip, idk when Im goin to ever be ready to just face it && take it step by step && see what happens ..... then God steps in. I believe everything happens for a reason. I get a message about a party for one of my aunties. Everyone is gonna be there, everyone including my dad.
This is my chance. Let the progress begin ...

You gotta be S P E C I A L

"You can't just love me like they do

I need someone special in you

I know that out there theres a few

See I've been searching I don't what to do Can you help me?

He gotta be special

By that I mean that you gon hold me down

Cuz you never know how people stick around

A guy I can love that sees nothing wrong with getting used to me

Yea my name aint change but I'm far from the woman that I used to be .... "

"Special - Drake ft. Voice


Ok ok I knw this song is some ancient Drake shit but this song is so real. Im looking for someone special. I dnt want the ordinary. I want someone to be down, someone who really cares. May be a lil far fetched but as long as I dream its a possibility it can come true .....

"I told you I'm careful with my heart girl, many have played me

Or maybe its karma

They say Ima charmer

Hafway to a knight so I stay in a armor

I'm fire on the move

A tire looking smooth

I'm not perfect but I got a desire to improve

I'm special

Like kids in a graduating class

Having more trouble than others when addin basic math

Need you to be special like areba to cootmore

Double o, top secret agents with suits on

Something so deep it da drown me

Friends are some cool dudes

I vouch for the people around me

On your end its simple

All you have to do

Is give me no reason for other lovers after you"


....point blank period!

Whoop Whoop!

Ahhhhh it feels so good to take care of business! I must say Im proud of me lol. Finally got enrolled and did my 1st day of my community service. Wasnt anywhere near as bad as I thought it would be. Better late than never I guess lol. Im slowly but surely payin off this accident I got myself into, just found out there's gonna be less pressure at work on the referal tip. I must say life is goin pretty good right now .... evrything is in my reach and Im reaching out to grab it!!

Two Ears Full of Tears

Back in the swing of things from my week long vacation. Man is it hard to get back on track! I woke up this morning like whats work? Lol I had a lovely time for my b day though. Got my ATL on at Skate Depot introduced my mom to our party place lol. It was all laughs and giggles now Im back to my reality. Back to the same raggedy agenda. Saw some shit that really got me fucked up in the head last nite. Didnt even have to do with me directly but I swear you cross someone close to me and its like a cut to my heart. It got me thinking about some of the choices Im making that can put me in the same hurtful position. It really kills me that I know Im smarter than a lot of the choices I decide to make. Looking back I can see how my tolerance of destructive behavior caused a lot of pain felt not only by me.

So now I lay in bed listening to some music trying to clear my mind, its the only thing working for me right about now. Where the hell did these tears come from? Man I gotta make a move and make it quick. Im hurting myself. I think all I want is my respect. I need to get into some deep prayer and get this together cause this here really aint it. Until its together Im M.I.A. I definitely need some me time and not the kind that would grant me temporary happiness. Here I go .. .. ..